Conversations

After a slight pause, I'm back to the blogging series on waiting that I started a couple of weeks ago. Today's topic is more related to singleness and how it can be awkward to interact with marrieds. And how a seemingly simple comment can sting  - even it wasn't meant hurtfully. 

While talking with a couple of co-workers about kids, etc. One was talking about how she wanted to be done having children by the time she was thirty, another said she was done by the time she was 37, and they both looked at me and all I could think of was "well, I had always planned to be done by the time I was 30 but I'm 35 and I haven't even started!" oh, that hurt to say because it is a desire of my heart to have children. but I am not willing to comprise my beliefs to get pregnant outside of marriage. And I believe that children deserve a home with both a mom and a dad. which is why God planned procreation to involve two people.

The other conversation occurred when I unexpectedly saw an acquaintance in a store. We had a great time catching up and of course the topic of my current dating status inevitably comes up. She mentioned she knew this guy at her church who was single. My standard answer in these kinds of conversations is "I'm open to meeting people." because I am open to meeting people. Then she said - "you deserve to be happy." Ouch. So I can't be happy without being married? Being single is definitely not my first choice but I would prefer to be single than married to the wrong man. 

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 Please set me up! 

I need help meeting eligible young men who are single, straight and love God.

I promise to not hold you responsible if it doesn't work out. 

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 Yes, it stings to think that my dream of being a wife and mother may never come true but that is what I must consider because God does not guarantee that all our dreams will come true.  He does guarantee that in this life there will be troubles. and perhaps struggling with the desire for a life with a spouse and children is my trouble. or perhaps marriage would bring incredible heartbreak that God has allowed me to remain single as a protection. Whatever the reason, I am content with my life and thankful for all the ways that God has chosen to bless my life.