What do the tears mean?

Tears. so many different kinds.
tears of sadness, joy, from yawning (or maybe that is just me!)
salt water gushing out of your eyes or just gently caressing your face.
gut wrenching sobs where your heart feels like it is about to break in pieces. 

It dawned on me today that I've been crying a lot lately. or else I've felt like I wanted to cry. It doesn't seem to matter the situation: gym workout, wandering around my house, at my desk at work, driving in my car, or at a movie. I've never really been someone who cries at the drop of a hat but overnight I seem to have become that person. Perhaps it is only because I've been too unemotional in the past and I'm now becoming more in tune and get to learn to manage them better.

As an introvert it is much easier to keep things within rather than share them with others. Part of the reticence is an insecurity regarding who is and who is not trustworthy. Another part is keeping some dreams/thoughts/hopes to myself because of the possibility of sharing will "jinx" them from becoming true.

I know that God is changing my heart and that He has called me to a new faith tradition. Sometimes trying to keep everything straight is overwhelming. I'm afraid of doing or saying the wrong thing or inadvertently offending someone or offending God.

At the moment, I'm not sure what the tears mean. I do know that they mean something and I just need to figure out what and why. There are so many emotions tumbling around inside that is hard to sort things out.

For the moment, I'm just going to experience life and the tears as they come and keep a hankie in my pocket.