The last two weeks have been rough and it is hard to know where to share the tears and pain but my blog is safer than FB and more open than my journal because I need to share. Yet it seems so trivial to complain about a "rough patch" at work - a part of me thinks I should be thankful for my job. But getting a negative review is incredibly painful especially when you've been trying your best and it doesn't seem to be good enough. I haven't cried this much at a job since I was shamed for crying in 4th grade. (and yes, school is a job!)
Lots of tears have been shed and pleading prayers sent up to heaven. Did I make the right decision to switch jobs? Am I in the best position for me? Where can I best use my gifts and talents? What opportunities do I need to consider? I know God has a plan but right now all I see is fog blurring the path.
I ask for your prayers, permission to cry and if you're local and feel inclined, a hug. (I'm not usually the "huggy" type but right now I'll take all I can get.)
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Oh Anna, I am so sorry... sending you an email...
I'm sorry, that must be so hard. I take criticism really personally so I can understand why you're so down. Try to focus on your strengths and all the ways you're improving, and when that's not enough remember that His strength is made perfect in our weakness! Love you!
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